Here, you will find posts about my daily life, photography, random ramblings, *excessive fangirling* and also my hardcore emotional expression. Oh yeah, YOU'RE AT MY BLOG, YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO SEE THROUGH MY PERSPECTIVE♥! Lol!! sorry.
title: oliver fever ;D I just feel like blogging again. As the title said.. O.L.I.V.E.R!
We went to school today, so i think oliver is having his free period or something because he was walking here and there with his friends. I saw him at the foyer and he's soooooooo cute. Eqah told me that he's looking at our direction and i was so kambang when i look at him.. He's just soooo cute but i never like it when he looked at me.. Okay i lied, i like it okay? But his expression was that as if he hated me or something. I noticed that, (duh of course i noticed because i STARE AND LOOK AT HIM LIKE CRAZY WHEN HE'S BUSY LOOKING SOMEWHERE ELSE) Well, as i said, i noticed that his good friend is the one who makes him turn to me everytime we crossed each other's path. That guy would see me, then say something to him, then, he'll turn and look it me with somewhat that surprised then annoyed expression. Sigh. Probably the friend noticed that, i always looked at him. Somehow, when we're both are alone walking past each other, he'll turn head away and i would look down. Sigh. Sometimes it makes me wonder if he even noticed me. Accidental eye contact is normal. =/ i always wish that i wouldn't look away so fast.. That i could just look at him a few seconds more when we accidentally made an eye contact. The truth is, i'm afraid to. As much as i am enjoying it, i mean looking at him..... I dont want him to notice. Of course, he caught me a few times staring at him. Another thing is that, WHY DO I HAVE TO LOOK DOWN when he's walking towards my direction and walk past me.. Chance to look at him TOTALLY WASTED. Now, after this.. How am i going to bear it when i wanna look at that face again..? Howww? And when am i going to learn that this crush is going nowhere?? Its been what? Four years??? I've tried moving on.. I've tried not to let my heart skip a beat when i see him. I've tried liking someone else. Every faces that reminds me of him, every move that reminds me of him.. If i liked them because they reminded me of him, isn't that just wrong? I remembered crying when one day, the day before facebook, the day before twitter, when i saw her picture in his friendster account. I was sad the whole week. And i was extremely happy when he removed it not long after that. I can't live like this forever. Sometimes i just feel like saying hi to him so that he'll know that i existed. Sometimes i wish that i just have the courage to do that. Maybe if he's the one who tell me that there's no chance, i'll eventually move on. Just maybe. We met a lot of times today. I thought i was over him. But the second i say him..... everything just fall into pieces. I was so sure that i am so over him but.. :) slap up the happy face. I'm done here.  lets pretend to be very happy shall we? |
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title: your seed translation. fits current situation. Translation
Believe yourself, You can get it on. Believe yourself, You can make it up. Believe yourself, you can believe Believe yourself, in yourself Believe yourself, You can get it on. Believe yourself, You can make it up. Believe yourself, you can believe Believe yourself, until the very end. Isn't it better to believe in yourself instead of vague rumors? Because it's something you really want to do you shouldn't run away from it. Even though when you talk about life it echoes heavily in your chest, parting with the courage to say what you like is something you shouldn't do. If you keep not giving up, there will always be a chance. The story won't end. Never Ending Story The dream continues. Never Ending Story The dream continues. Believe yourself, You can get it on. Believe yourself, You can make it up. Believe yourself, you can believe Believe yourself, in yourself Believe yourself, You can get it on. Believe yourself, You can make it up. Believe yourself, you can believe Believe yourself, until the end Isn't it better to be confused instead of staying calm all the time? If you live carefully, doesn't your heart yearn for stimulation? Even though when you talk about 'eternity' and it seems to become far away so quickly, happiness is something, that if you have a path to chase after it, you can feel. If we go over there, which isn't here, there will be something that we can't find here. If you believe in yourself Never Ending Story The dream continues. If you keep not giving up, there's always a chance whenever it is. The story won't end. (It won't end.) Never Ending Story The dream continues. Never Ending Story The dream continues. Believe yourself, You can't get it on. Believe yourself, You can make it up. Believe yourself, you can believe Believe yourself, in yourself Believe yourself, You can't get it on. Believe yourself, You can make it up. Believe yourself, you can believe Believe yourself, until the very end. credits: shimizumiki.livejournal.com  lets pretend to be very happy shall we? |
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title: the big fat announcement :') So here's the big announcement.
I've got straight U and a C for my gp. To be honest, i am not satisfied with my biology. Hmm. Buleh mark lagi sekali kah? Are you sure that's my paper you're marking? EXAM ATU SANANG WAH! Cemana buleh tu?? Hahaha. Don't worry, i'm okay. I'm fine. I hope you support me and whatever decision i'm going to make in the future. I ditched my backup plan. I'm going to college instead. I'm targeting the mtssr college though. A long way to go to even get my hands on the degree but i will try to get it, no matter what. Or if there's any other better options, i will surely grab the opportunity. I'm gonna get myself a job and get my hands on that sexy mini sewing machine. To wxckedsci-er.. Congrats for those who got a very good result and the average one. To those who didn't manage to scrap through, like *cough* me, haha. Lets get our but off the solid ground and start again. We're not defeated yet. Press the reset button. We're wanna go rocka rocka rocka rocka rocka rock so fantastic. We just have to move at a slower pace. *ring ding dong ring ding dong ring diggy ding diggy ding ding ding* haha. Aja Aja fighting! Ganbatte ne! ^_^ So yeah, that's it. I'm off. lets pretend to be very happy shall we? |
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title: nothing for you Lets see. I've got nothing for you. Its been a while since the last time i updated... with a song lyric that is. I've been waiting for my alevel result for almost a week now and nope. It isn't out yet. The result arrived here in brunei on the 25 of january but this is.... The second of february. I don't know why but people are getting restless. False alarms are every where, every new day people will be shouting out 'result will be out today' but as the day ended, still, No result. Its been days like this. I don't really freak out as much as i did on the first day of the false alarm. No. I'm sick of it. But stil, people seems to do that every day. I think it'll only stop when the result's really out. =S
lets pretend to be very happy shall we? |
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title: nothing for you Lets see. I've got nothing for you. Its been a while since the last time i updated... with a song lyric that is. I've been waiting for my alevel result for almost a week now and nope. It isn't out yet. The result arrived here in brunei on the 25 of january but this is.... The second of february. I don't know why but people are getting restless. False alarms are every where, every new day people will be shouting out 'result will be out today' but as the day ended, still, No result. Its been days like this. I don't really freak out as much as i did on the first day of the false alarm. No. I'm sick of it. But stil, people seems to do that every day. I think it'll only stop when the result's really out. =S
lets pretend to be very happy shall we? |
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title: lyrics: lost - ueda tatsuya LOST – Ueda Tatsuya (KAT-TUN)
Lyrics: Ueda Tatsuya Itami ni modaeru Hitoshizuku no ai Nomihosezu ni iru Uzuite Kono mama Oku ni yariagete Nukedasezu ni iru If we look up at this beautiful sky Maybe we can be innocent again It's never late to make a change Kegarete Kowareta karada dake wo Karamase tsuite Nigedasanaide yo Surikiresou deshou? Imasara nakidasanaide ne Mata hi ga ochiteku Being lost Ai no nai kajitsu Kiku mimi motazu ni Kusarikakete yuku Kutte wa kuwarete Doko made kuchiru ka? Hikarinaki ana e Strip yourself of pride You won't be prisoner of the artificial world. Don't try to fake it, just be real Ai no ki sakasete Kawaita nohara ni wa hana wo Kokoro ni wa eien wo Itsuka wa todoku no? Hajimete mita yume no tsuzuki wo Mada tooi keredo Being lost. Ah Saigo kurai Kirei ni soko Tonde misete Kegarete Kowareta karada dake wo Karamase tsuite Nigedasanaide yo Itsuka wa todoku no? Hajimete mita yume no ori wo Mada tooi keredo Being lost LOST – Ueda Tatsuya (KAT-TUN) Lyrics: Ueda Tatsuya Returning and worrying about pain A drop of love That has not been drunk Aching The way things are now Commit it in the interior It has not slipped away If we look up at this beautiful sky Maybe we can be innocent again It's never late to make a change Flithy Bodies that are broken Tangled together Don ’t run away Maybe I’m getting worn out? Don’t cry about it now The sun will set again Being lost A fruit without love Without ears to hear things They slowly rot away Eating or being eaten How much will it rot? To a hole where light dies Strip yourself of pride You won't be a prisoner of the artificial world Don't try to fake it, just be real Let the tree of love bloom A flower in the dry field Eternity in our hearts When will it reach? The continuance of the dream I first had Is still far away Being lost Ah Like it is the last Beautifully at the bottom Show me you can fly Flithy Bodies that are broken Tangled together Don ’t run away When will it reach? The dregs of the dream I first had Are still far away Being lost lets pretend to be very happy shall we? |
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