Monday, November 09, 2009

poignant memories full of sunshines, now filled with images in monochrome~

Hola! Its been a while yeah. I had this feeling that i should update my blog. I mean, look at it! Only 50+ posts! Pathetic. If my old blog isn't privated and is still running on publicly, my posts would be at least 450? *take calculator* yes. I'm right. Haha. So you see, it seems like i'm just babbling off some stupid things here and yes, you're right, i don't have a prepared post this time. This is spontaneous. I don't care if you don't go and read my blog. Screw you! I'm good. Haha. Now, that's annoying. XP a week to go and exam'll be over! Talk about holidays, i have to get a freaking job. Firstly, i'll be super fat if i just stay at home. Secondly, MY MOM ISN'T GOING TO GIVE ANY ALLOWANCE! That's one bad thing. HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO ENJOY MYSELF? SO yeah. I heard that some people had already landed on a job, some were called for interviews..... me? I haven't even prepared my cv yet! Screw me!

So lets talk about me. Haha. Okay, this time, nothing on my love life okay? Because theoretically i don't have a LOVE LIFE. haha. But chill. I'm cool by myself. *kirai2* My days are boring. Yes. Its always boring but this time its boring than the usual boring days. Get what i mean? Think of it! When's the last time i crap talk with the girls? Okay, i did that with fiqah last week but we were both trying to refrain ourselves so that we wouldn't get drifted away from what we're planning to do-study chemistry! And i've been bugging myself with foods all week. I'm actually starting my diet plan now! Like, hurray..! I'm counting calories! And i'm trying to burn some each day too, for best result. Which also reminds me that i have to buy a new pair of sport shoes! -_-' now, i'm doing it indoor ja. Better than nothing. My goal is ±10kg/2½month. That's a realistic one. That way, i'll be back to my ideal weight but most probably i'll try to get to my preferable weight which is 48. Seems so easy to say, its TOUGH! Your willpower should be strong. Haha. I've been on facebook too much lately (aren't i always been?) mostly i am just bothering people because i was so bored-usually i only bother people who doesn't seem to care being bothered. At least i don't really tweet much in twitter! This thing is addictive.
Seriously. But luckily i'm not that addicted.

Also, its the only thing that could distract me from food. Anyway, i will be sitting for biology 1 tomorrow. Wish me luck. And also chemistry paper4 after that. Very close ah.

Oh yeah, you should know how bad my addiction to food is. Its like, being addicted to cigar or drugs. Pretty bad. But i'm learning to control that. I guess, this holiday, there's no family trips whatsoever. :/ we haven't been on a family outings for so long and as far as i remembered i was moody on the last one. A big turnoffs!

Well, i have to sign off now. I don't wanna sleep through my exam. and its kinda late now. See you. I think i'll update this blog again in the nearest possible time in the future. You know, life's pretty hard right now. One have to be strong enough to face this.

I'll get through this. :)
like i always do.

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lets pretend to be very happy shall we?

Saturday, October 24, 2009

copy pasted.

its friday when i typed this. (yeah, like that's the usual phrase i used to start my posts.. and like that matters). I guess by the time i posted this, it would be a few days after i typed this. Not that it matters though because you see, quality content is what i'm lacking here. Not that it matters. And like, i hate it when people overused the word "like" in a sentence. Haha. But look, i'm doing it now. Lol. I had my sociology exam today. It was.. =__=' from the very begining. When i arrived at school, it was around 2.00, the school gate was locked and the invigilators were waiting in front of the gate, it was a hot day really. There's this minor traffic infront of the school as students stopped their cars there. At last, we have to get through this one hole on the gate like an intruder, all of us. I'm not sure at what time the gate was finally unlocked but i think its after 2.30 when we already started our exam in the hall and students have to park their cars at the side of the road. The exam was easy. Yes. But i didn't touch anything on crime and deviance so i think i flunk that one too. I've got no reference too. It feels good too. To actually get this burden off me, finally because this is my last exam for sociology. I could have done better if i read up more on religion. Not that we ever covered that but i quite understand the topic as i did a lot of independent reading on that topic. So when i see secularization, i was like, oh god, why didn't i read that one banar2. I could have scored that one pretty easily. But i did the usuals, family& household, education and crime and deviance. I even forgot about chivalry thesis for the definition part of crime and deviance. Tako.

My little brother bought uno cards today. It's our fifth or sixth cards. Lol. We keep on losing stuff. So after sometime not playing uno.. We gathered around and start playing.. As usual, we decide our turns by the rock-paper-scissor method. Its fun to cheat though. Peeking through people's card and all but its more fun if you talk in codes or cooperate with another person to make sure that the others will get a lot of cards and won't win or the excitement of catching a player when they forgot to say "uno" when they were withdrawing their second last card or when we try to fool someone by saying "please don't pick red, i don't have a red card" when they throw a wildcard. As usual, my littlest brother will be whining about how he always lose. In some serious cases, he cried because he think that we're all cheating. We always reserved the +2 or +4 cards for him because he could be very annoying even when he just got one wildcard. Its fun to surprise him. XD. Anyway, i'm not exactly into games. But uno is great for fun and for fights. We used to spend our nights just playing that during ramadhan, while waiting for sahur. It sort of bothers my parents as we were laughing so hard and sometimes are shouting at each other while we're on the game. There's this one time my mom went to the living room with a cane because we made a lot of noises in the middle of the night, she just showed the cane to us, with her drowsy expression and ask us to shut up. We did. For a while.

That reminds me of the time when we're in our old house. I am a big fan of ghost story. My favourite time would be when there's thunder and lightning and heavy rains. I'll be switching on the air conditioner, crawl in to the blanket with the torchlight on, then tell ghost storier or discuss the existence of ghost. I used to do that with my brothers. There's this one time when my grandma entered my bedroom. We're all set up like we're in a camp or something, telling ghost stories with snacks, foods and drinks all over the place. I think my grandma was so annoyed with the shoutings and screaming that she actually warned us that the ghost might hear us and go after us. We were forced to sleep but instead we watched cds and dug for more snacks in the kitchen. Lol.

It was nice to remember those days. I had so much misunderstandings with my brothers but i don't know. Now, everyone seems to be selfish, moody and definitely rotting. I know that boys can't possibly stay at home everyday but i don't know, its just that sometimes, i think people should know their limit. With the other one having so much discipline problems at his arabic school. And i think i'm being much more childish from time to time. Childish as in jumping around, acting happy here and there. Gosh, that sounds more like retarded right? Haha. I don't feel like i'm the eldest around here. Especially when my first brother is around, which is once a week because he's staying in hostel too, just like my problematic third brother- i don't feel right labelling him as problematic but the did cause a lot of problems and headaches at school. My first brother has this sense of authority, he orders people around, i'm the gay sister who hates wrestlings and watch spongebob. Haha. I do have a lot of personalities, so yeah, that explains why you sometimes see the different sides of me. Example, the mean me, the happy friendly me, the slap me cause i'm being super bitchy shy me and more me than you ever expected. Lol.

I'll stop here.. See you next time.. :D

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lets pretend to be very happy shall we?

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Sing me a song..

I feel like updating my blog but i barely have anything to be typed out. So here i am, typing away things that probably came across my mind right now. Lets just say that i'm being a tiny bit spontaneous now. As you know, its exam time. Some people might have finished their exam already, some had just started.. Example, me.

Sociology exam is not going so well. Well, maybe because i don't really like sociology but when i think of it. Why the heck do i wanna take sociology in the first place? I get hurt when my mom and dad told me that sociology is useless, i never even try to prove to them that it isn't useless. I know, other subjects are just as hard. Now i'm wishing that i take geography or economics or maths or physics instead. Some people have a very odd subject combinations but at least they're doing what they actually wanted to do. I can't help feeling a little envious.

As usual, i don't really have to do this so called "spontaneous" post as i've prepared a post already but after reviewing it, it sounded so personal and since i typed it out when i'm stressed and tense emotions were accompanying me at that time, so i decided to post it on the "other blog".

Lately, i've been very distracted. Its has been two weeks and my throat is not getting any better. The mucus and all. Very annoying. That's just it, when i fell sick, at times, it takes a long time to get better. Especially when its almost at the end of the year, where the weather gets all naughty. Sometimes it rains heavily, sometimes its really cold, sometimes its hot and dry.. And the temperature change really affect me.

To be honest, i'm not expecting much for sociology. My chemistry practical was okay. I lost a lot of marks but i heard it won't affect everything else much if you scored well in the other papers. I just have to do my best.

On the other hand. I'm stil preparing my CV. I really have no idea what i'll be doing after this. Hopefully i will get a job before december. I'll be awfully bored at home and awfully fat. Like now. Thanks, i gained 10kgs. Awesome right? Lol.

Pipah is fat. Huhu.

And lately, i've been qada' ing a lot. Very bad isnt it. Sigh.

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lets pretend to be very happy shall we?

Monday, October 12, 2009

Exam oi! XD

exam starts today.

MY WHOLE FREAKING LIFE DEPENDS ON THIS EXAM! It'll be going on for a month.. :/

procrastination is such a loyal friend but i'm afraid i will have to break our pure friendship now. Don't cry buddy, you'll find someone better.

Mama kata grade C is okay.. FOR SOCIOLOGY.


Kena berusaha lebih sikit. Tak nak menyesal.

Kata orang.. *nah lupa tia perumpamaan atu* sori bm ku telur sedikit. XD ahaksxzzzXxXxXxzxz <- okay, nda buleh menyeluru urang ani, ketulahan karang. Time exam tah lagi hahahaha. Photobucket
lets pretend to be very happy shall we?

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Thoughts before me

i always have this thought that if you wanna be manja, you should be cute.

Hahahaha~

i'm a bit taller compared to eqah and eyan.. and i look matured compared to both. So i always think that in the presence of cuter people, the uncute one shouldn't act cute.


Or maybe its just me and my inferiority..

Or the way i think..


I feel FAT.

*sigh*

now, sociology, please be nice to me.


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lets pretend to be very happy shall we?

Thoughts before me

i always have this thought that if you wanna be manja, you should be cute.

Hahahaha~

i'm a bit taller compared to eqah and eyan.. and i look matured compared to both. So i always think that in the presence of cuter people, the uncute one shouldn't act cute.


Or maybe its just me and my inferiority..

Or the way i think..


I feel FAT.

*sigh*

now, sociology, please be nice to me.


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lets pretend to be very happy shall we?

Thursday, October 08, 2009

Names

Names that people use to call me..

The common one is at the top and as it goes down, less people call me that..


afifahtul
afifah
fatul
fifah
pipah
peepah
pip
peep
pipz
pipzo
effie
ema
fifi
fye
emily


people who don't really know me would use the first four. But i liked it when people address me personally as if we're close. Its better to call me pipah than afifahtul which sounds so formal and awkward. But anything should be fine.


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lets pretend to be very happy shall we?